My gosh `` my life my world ??!

Oh my god ` long time never log in my blogger..!
haha ` a bit lazy ~
but i should be continue it ..!
because i have nothing to do ` just can spent my time to computer
lol `
write down how my feel how my life
this two month i really dunno how this world is become to ??!
i really can't imagine `
it's suck here

I hate this world `
trouble to me
make me frighten with this world & things

who can change the world become peace ??!
since my birthday my life is change `
my mind is change `
everything is change ..!

my life become black & white `
no colour anymore

I just need a people paint my life ..!
I waiting for you `

nowadays i always wish that i can success in diet `
but i can't do it dunno why ..!
why ??!
i become more & more useless `
what can i do ??!

I wanna study but i can't `
i can't make any decision for my future ??!
anyone can help ?!

why always need people help?
why i never worry for my future ??
in fact` many people always ask me ?!
why you never study ?!
you graduated de ?!
what you doing now ?!
i will feel annoy `
cause i dunno what i want ` what i need also..!
actually is my problem `


i should blame it myself `

aiiksssss `` when i just can step out this kind of life ??!


since that day , i already decided that forget you
i try to give up `
but i do it ..!
really ` i forget you !
you said something over to me ..!
i didn't angry with you
cause i know that you don't want i missunderstand `

but i need to say thank you `
I don't love you ` but i like you ..!

you happy i happy `
add oil ya !!

I will change myself `
I will change myself by inner to outner ..!

my target ` serious ..!
i can't be so pretty ` but i can do it ..!

Blogging ` I wanT blogging suddenly

I long time din log in my fs ` blogger ` wretch already `
felt like a bit strange & lazy `

But I like blogging because i wanna write down my daily routine or weekly routine `
I just wanna release at here `
nobody can disturd me

I don't like to share things with others `
because i didn't have this habbit
I don't like to show out my weak side ``
I don't like people talk something touch in front of me `
because my tears easy drop out `

I like people share theirs things with me `
but i dunno how to give consoling to people `
that's why today i ask yenny go popular with me buy some book to improve how's to talking & some words manner when face social problem or what !
I need this ..!
actually i found it today what book i want
but in the end i didn't buy it
because i too hungry that time `
feel like wanna faint ` so i ask yenny accompany i go having my breakfast `
actually before my breakfast ` I already accompany yenny have her breakfast in her favorite coffe house `
having her nuggets & french fries
she keep asking me want to eat anot ??!
I keep said DON"T WANT that time `
Because that time i so tough
I just thinkTHIN
I thought i can sucessful on today ` buT in the end i still unsucessful
I lose to delicious food

Today me & yenny talked so much about future & her study life & her life `
actually i can felt that how annoying she had `
she dunno what can she choose
she scared after she choose the way she will regret `
But i think that she so interest with this way ` go to australia `
but chloe & her family also not so support she go so far for working
whatever `` yenny still a girl !
how come her family can let her alone go so far `
somemore without relatives or what `
it's really dangerous `
My adviced : Friends cannot trust 100 %
even relatives also cannot trust ..!
so must think properly `yenny

I prefer you follow your uncle way more than go australia with friends `


add ups `
Today when i hanging around with yenny
i meet ah chung my first love`
OMG ` why i will meet him
But i can't control myself to called him
I should listen to yenny ``
don't call him !

he din give me any respon do you know ??!
aRghhhh ```
Friends
why like that ??!

At The Night

I online msn ` chatting with juztin
LOL ` i can't guess that what he talked today
doesn't like him

his face just give people feel like playful boy `
but do you know what's he talked to me today ??!
OMG ``` damn serious !
suddenly today he become so man `
haha ...` If not brother i will falling in love with him because today ..!
Responsibilty `` haha ``


Today already 12 . 05 .08 lerrr !
arghhh ` dunno when 22 . 05 . 08 can i sucessful on diet ??!
I wish i can ``
I wanna become pretty `` I wanna slim when i birthday ``

Give me pressure `` FRIENDS !!!
as hard as you can ```
It's can helps me



Actually i waiting for genting trip with them `
I will enjoy the time i with them really !
i like to stick with them `
My buddy ..!
=P




I LOVE FRIENDS ``

Mood come `

LOL ` suddenly i full of mood to write blog `
do you all know why ??!

can't guess ??!
haha ` because i'm chatting with him now ..

别再谈感情，学业，事业，好吗？ 就谈废话好了
LMAO

I saw him yesterday `
Happy
I never think that i will saw him that day


But just can saw his backside `
But happy enough `
means that we still have a little bit fate ..
^^

Chloe ` she's back
lol ` the most happy is she came back
when she's back also my happy time !
Just the time i can enjoy as well as laugh most


I love her lots `

Yenny ` she had a tattoo for her back neck there
lol ` damn cool !
but use RM 200 already `
it's hearts pain if pay by me ..

I make up that day `
lol ` felt like eyes big already !
look nice a bit
But confidence still not belong with me
dunno why ` I need confidence ..


I want to learn make up
I wanna upgrade myself
Become a pretty girl !

I believe no ugly girl in this world just lazy girl `
GAMBATEH !!!

THANKS YOU GUY SUPPORT ME !


LOVE BLIND `
I agree

Just for the most who i miss `

Oh my God `
why till now i also can't forget you ??
why you keep appear in my mind `
aRghh ` i wish i can forget you !
i know you also wish i do that `

Recently you upload new pic always !
look QQ `
I felt like wanna drop comment to you one `
but i don't want in the end
because I know you wont care what i write wont reply i anything right ??
But i still care you lots `
I don't want see you sad
I don't want see you lose yourself

Terry you should back `
find your way !




What a fun pictures ya `
QQ ! Twins sister ..

haha ``` Love ya lots !!

If you guys let me choose again` i also will choose to say I LOVE YOU with you
I no regreT `

I will hold on you `
never let you go !!!
If i can ....!


I know you wont open my blog `
but i just wanna tell's somebody my feeling ..
will let me feel more good `

=P

we almost have one month din meet each other de !
and we never take pictures before
I'm waiting for `

Old Friends meeTing `

I miss you all lots`
haha ~ thursday my god sis yan yi asking me saturday go out ..
actually firstly i tot wont out that day
because i felt that myself wont wake up so early on saturday `
haha !

Really ` I'm right !
I can't wake up `
luckily my sis called me wake up if not i will break my promise again ..

So happy that i meet them `
so happy with them actually !
haha ` love them lot

my jii muii ` my sister ` my cute friends ` all of you !
haha mwarksss





but too bad ` my handphone no battery
my handphone can't take pictures ` aRghhhhh !
so hate ..
I'm waste de !!

we got take big head stickers `
so nice ..
hohoho ` mwarkssss

I waiting the next day we meet ` I miss ah yannnnn !

I never say it `

naRhx ` I never say to anyone myself is pretty
I never say to anyone myself is cute
Just said by all of you `

believe me ` Photo can have a big different with pictures !
I'm a fatty `

but sometimes really hurt me
what you did and what you said
please when said somethings do care people feel



Arghhh `` a net friend asking me to buy a diet pill
Just felt like wanna buy `
but i damn care have other effect
I should buy or not buy ?
aRghhh ` i want become thin !
Help ...

This world just realitic `
If a girl is pretty just will welcome by all people
If a girl is ugly just will be lonely
never have people look at her

That's unlucky is i'm the ugly one ` aiiksssss ..
whaT can i do ??!


But you have no qualify to judge me `
IDIOT ` errrkzz

Hamano

First day First try to be boss

My first day first try to be boss ~!
hoho ..
Just felt funny and syoik because first try merhx

People always said ` three minute hot temper `
haha i think this will right exactly ...!
I always is a person who have this bad attitude ~~

Today i sell wan tan mee in mummy shop `
actually i sell things also because force by areas
i have no choices
because i just have one daddy one mummy
if i no helps them increase their stress
they just wil be hard & hard
is no good for health & i have no reason to tell myself i don't want helps them `

Today i have tuition for account *
since i know that i can't sit for spm this year
I just give up everything ~
tuition ??! I have no mood to go `
Just meaningless to me !
I told myself ' Go for what ' ???
Give excuse for myself to leave all problems
that's me `


Today cousin sister ' carmen & see yan ' came to my mummy shop `
The first see yan ask is ' aikyo why you cry ??! so pity '
I felt touch because they so sayang me
I love them lots


I chaT with him today but just for little

I apreciaTe every words he said to me he asked me
even message i also never delete since we sms till now ..

BELOW :

Msn chat box with him

☠ 〖 HaMaNo™ 〗 ❤ SAYA SOTONG BABY ❤ says:
Terry
QQxiha says:
ya?
☠ 〖 HaMaNo™ 〗 ❤ SAYA SOTONG BABY ❤ ╬says:
haha ~~! nice new pic ya
☠ 〖 HaMaNo™ 〗 ❤ SAYA SOTONG BABY ❤ says:
=P
QQxiha says:
thanx
☠ 〖 HaMaNo™ 〗 ❤ SAYA SOTONG BABY ❤ says:
welcome welcome ~~!
☠ 〖 HaMaNo™ 〗 ❤ SAYA SOTONG BABY ❤ says:
how's ya there ??! wowww ~ long time no chat ..! weee
QQxiha says:
im fine here
QQxiha says:
u?
☠ 〖 HaMaNo™ 〗 ❤ SAYA SOTONG BABY ❤ says:
errr ~~! not really fine ..! handphone let people stole le ! aRghhh !


FINALLY
we stop because he didn't reply me


Today i checked out his blog `
It's touching !
I know how much he loves jessica
but i can't control myself to love him ..
I have try to forget him
buT everytime i saw his news or heard his news
I so care `
I don't know why `


The way i can do is SUPPORT HIM always

He has post new pictures in friendster when 13.04.08
i'm not dare to post comment at there although it's really nice
I just melting when i saw his pictures =D
but i have no other way i just can view him everyday
I really miss him

I wanna cry

Did anyone beside me when i'm sad ??!
Did anyone feel my pain ??!
Did anyone care about me ??!

I felt lonely
I just feel like need someone
will you appears ???!
I just wait for someone who change my life
I start to feel lonely


I just lost myself when i'm sad ' I just know how to cry !
I dunno what can i do ..
sometimes really felt that myself useless
always fooling around in the end just will get zero
people always ask me ' you don't want continue study ' ??
I just will felt shame to answer them `
because i dunno what i want also ...
Can anyone help me `

even parent's & sister also cannot help me !
who can helps ??

I think i just made my parent's felt dissapointed `
they worry about i know ..
they also felt guilty
They know that because they cannot help me anything !
But i don't need theirs help really !
i can handle by myself !
my life is mine one ~ way is choose by me !
I will have my own resposibility

I'm sad

Sad-ing

I was lost my handphone today
Opps oH ~damn sad lerr !
Don't let me know who stole my handphone
I just will let him / her die harly ~~!
sorry mummy i know my careless
but i'm not wish too ~~!
lately seem like have many problem appears ~!
like bad luck go by me ..


i'm really scared
I worry for my future
I wish to study actually
If i not continue study i really don't know what can i do ~~!
have any people help me ??!


Uncle tell me ~~!
This road is choose by me
nobody can help me
i must do everything by myself
use mouth to ask ..
no need to feel shy
If feel shy the last result is get zero ~!

so now i must be independent
do everything by myself ~~!
wish do not let parent worry about me ~~!

sometimes felt myself is useless
Just will made out more & more problem
never think the result then go ahead do
when done de just will regret
is no use ..!

so now i must do before think
i must have a mature thinking ..

believe me ~~!

Her big birththday
wish her pretty always
Love her !

I still mising you ~~!
do you still remember me ?!
although we din chat for a long time ~~!

13.12.07 FirsT Time

I miss you so much !
I didn't see you almost one month already ~
miss you damn ..!
dunno why ~ you always in my mind !
I cannot forgeT you ` although you never find me never chat with me never give concern to me
I still miss you & love you


so miss you

First time you said good night to me since we din chat always !
I will appreciate it !

Just awesome for me
a simple word for everyone but important to me..

Day start to on dieT =P

27.03.08
I went to kl finding my precious dear dear CHLOE :)
I start my journey at 7.15 am ~
after three hour just reached there
The time is 10.30 am

my precious chloe wait for so long ..
haha ~~!
then after that we straigtly walk to time square from pudu ^^
OMG ~~~! EXHAUSTED !!!

after that we having our breakfast aT time square
spent RM25 + for one meal ..!
wow quite expensive ~~ a bit heartpain [ blerrkzz ]

Then we walking around ~~ lepak here lepak there !
because thursday is school day
less people hanging out that day
feel quite bored because no handsome or leng luii *

But i saw kimo in I-sock ^^
she so damn cute ~!
actually i feel like wanna go call her one !
but i scared because i have big different in pictures
look fat in real people ...


we had buy same clothes in romp ~~!
feel excited ~~!
because we wear same day ^^
but sure she wear more nice lerr ..!

continue we went to sungai wang
haha ~~! chloe had no money to shopping already
so i ask her gone back her sis house took credit card just went back to sungai wang
we took almost half hour to back her sis house
we need to take lrt ~~! monorail ^^
actualy feel syoik because ipoh don't have this kind of life ..!
then when we reached bukit jalil ~
she called her sis come out fetch us go back !

then her sis bring us go having lunch ~!
so envy chloe because she have such sucessful sister ..!
she can teaching us many things ~

^^
RESPECT !

what a sad day ?!
that stupid lee hou make me feel moody :(
sad case
although i admit that i'm fat but no need to annouce to everybody know i'm fat okie..!
not i hope to fat ~~!
who wish other people call her/him fatty one ??!
use brain also know okie ..!
I don't want to angry you or what ~~!
because this is the motivation to let us on diet
i will thank you if i really can slim down

firstly is a happy day because i wear new look go out !
but lee hou you spoilt my mood la ..!
duh ~~~!

nobody will know what i felt that day ~~!

Anti food here

I swear here !

I Hamano musT slim down in two months ~
believe me ..!
I CAN BECAUSE I WANT TO BE WITH HIM !

I miss you so much
wish to see ya !!

mwarkssss ...!

The day before i go kl

wow ~~ feel so happy & excited ! i go kl find my dear tomorrow ..! yoohozz ~~! so miss her ! Tomorrow can shopping with her .. aiikss ~ too bad ! Today mummy said to me : you don't go kl larhx !! that ticket don't want le .~ i should not help you buy ticket haha ~~! because she is worry me ! anyway ~~~! don't worry me ! i will take care myself ..!

I LOVE FAMILY ~~! I LOVE ALL OF YOU !

somemore mummy said to me ~
don't use too much $$
we now need to save ~~!
aiikss ..
hard for me really
i dunno how to save money !
don't angry me lerr !

24.03.08

The pictures I took today ^^ The latesT hamano

Chloe already gone back to kl ~!
It's such a sad case for me ..
no more fun
no more nightlife

The lasT pictures i took with her & 7 zai
I love her so much !
i'm waiting the nexT time she come back ipoh
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

OMG ~~! whaT a damn day
sucker ..!
Is him again ??!
how come i will have a friend like you??
You just bring me problem always ~~!
I HATE YOU

I really love him so much
why you all no one support me ??!
why he treat me bad ?! aiiks ~~!
I dunno why i will love you so much
it's really make me suffer & make me sad
I should not to love you
I should not to confessed with you ~~!
It's wrong ..!
Now i just realize that love a guy no need to confessed ~~!
if that guy don't like you then geT da last result is [ Hi bye friend or even friend also not to be ]
I dunno where i get the brave to confessed to him
I have regreT
Please turn back the time :-(
I will not confessed if can turn back the time !


Yesterday he on msn when dawn time
I felt pretty happy
because i saw he online !
I guess that he wont reply me
but he did ..!
He reply me ~~!
we chat for a while

haha ~~! i never wish that he will said night to me !
just a simple word for everyone
but said out from your mouth just awsome for me ~~!
why ??!
because you are my V.I.P [ very important person ]


when i just can give up ?!
please tell me ...!

I'm waiting for my MR.right


NEW FRIEND I MEET [ BELOW THERE ]

I
KIT YI
WAI KUAN

MIKO

Chloe Chloe part of my life

BUDDY of mine ~~!
she is come back already
my life full of colour
because we always stick together ~~!
i really so happy to be with her ..~
i can't lost her ~~! she really a part of mine ..!

I wanT to have this friend forever & ever ~~!
till last in the end

I not allowed other people grab her from me ~~!
if not i will kill them [ believe me ]

I wanT to be honesT with you
I wanT to be myself with you
I wanT to be happy with you

TRUE FRIEND

JUST FOR YOU

FRIENDS

`You're never alone, I'm always near,
`When your troubled, down or blue.
`All you have to do is call me,
`I'm always here for you.
`It doesn't matter where I'm at,
`It doesn't matter when.
`When you need someone to talk to,
`I'm here to be your friend.
`If you need someone to hold your hand,
`or a hug to say I care.
`If you need a shoulder to cry on,
`for you I will be there.
`So never think you are a burden,
`when the weight gets to be to much.
`You might find if look hard enough,
`a good friend could be the right touch.
`You're never alone, I'm always here,
`through the good times and the bad.
`I'm always here to be your friend,
`I don't like to see you sad.


FRIENDS FOR YOU

FamiLy Day

29.02.08 I came back from parade after that already 8.00 pm
I was onlined till 10.30pm then i give my brother play de
afterward i keep watching tv till 2.00 + am just go sleep a hour
when i was sleeping i heard that what my mum scolded
she scolded my brother ' what time now ?! no need go to bed ? tomorrow no school ?!
haha sure let my mum scolded de my bro wil go up & sleep lurr
after that i was awake ~!

Then my turn to online again
XP
That's my life ~!
Firstly so damn bored one ~
then i meet light onlined ..
we chat for many many hour & many many topic
he give me da feel just like a funny boy & stupid
I like to chat with him
then we keep chatting till 7.00 am
haha my mum was dated me go out having breakfast
i'm so happy to heard that because really so damn long never tried go out early in da morning ..
haha somemore i had promise light to da bao for him


so da way i da bao is take pic for him



aiiks firstly so happy because went out ate with family
buT suddenly da fucker police was came
then my dad rushing go out & clutch da coupon
OMG da most excited is clutch da coupon de still will get big saman
because ......
haha my dumb sis & dad write wrong date !
my mum so angry when heard that they write wrong date & getting saman
she so damn ' mm gam yuen '
haha ~! luckily da dumb one not me
if not i will get scold till macam ' dog blood over head '



FIRST SAMAN GET IN 2008
RM30 ! LOLsss my mum heartpain with ..!

Can He Get out My Heart ??!

I really no any confident to face love !
and da mosT big problem is no confident to face my self
once i falling in love with a guy i will heart him deeply ~
i'm fool of ❤ seriously .. no people can understand what my feel !
even all of my dear friends ..
I don't want this feel again ~ It's really not a good tastes ..
I don't want to love people anymore !
I wanna waiting somebody love me .. can i ??!
aiiks ~~! Love really complicated ~ why ??!
I remember that teacher told me before ' love just like a graphic '
hard to keep it for many years if you are not pro in this ❤ case
somemore one of my dear joey told me that love need to sacrifieces love need to patiently love need to understand ..
I'm 100% agree with all this things because it's really truth ..

By da side - today i also edit a pic for him !
Describe me & him ~ all my feeling is come out by this song [ TEARS DROP ON MY GUITAR ]
when i listen to this song i really feel it suit me because da meaning is same like me & him




PLEASE FLIRT ASS DON'T NEAR TO ME
REALLY ANTI-FLIRT ASS HERE !
DON'T MAKE MY HEART BREAK AGAIN



LET'S MY LIFE BEGIN

Brain full of him

OMG ~ why i thinking of him always ?!
Please stop me anyone ..
I dun want to ❤ him i wanna control myself to falling in ❤ with him

Today go shopping ~
firstly i just date miko only ..
then i also have ask terry go !
but firstly thought he din go de ~ then dunno why when i was in parade i saw him !
that time i was happy because saw him ..
by da other side is ~~! karu also have out ~!
OMG ~ hater !!
he is spoilt my mood when heard his name ..
deng ~~! people din ask you out jau don't out la ~!


Terry Terry Terry
althought you treat me bad ~ but i still heart you dunno why !
aiiks ~~ please !! my MR.RIGHT come fastly if not i will hurt deeply ~~!

waiting for you guy ~! ^^

[ 28.02.2008 ] STUPID DAY

Yesterday i was sleep aT morning 8.00 am , that's my life ! i never feel tired however i just sleep for four hour or three hour ~!early morning then mummy call me wake up at 1.30 pm [ OMG ~ it's really early for me , because i sleep late ]aikyo ~ i really cannot sleep early la ! don't scold me please ~my mum always said : can you be back normal ??! your life is opposite with us when we are sleep you awake when we awake you are sleep ~~! somemore no good for health ~~ haha she keep said all this thing to me everyday ~! bla bla everyday ~! GOSH it's really damn ' fan 'Today she ask me wake up so early because she want ask me accompany her go JABATAN re-register her ic ~ because her ic was lost .. i feel weird why must i go ?? because she said she dunno malay & if need people fill da form need RM 10 that's why she need i go with her ..jusT have this time i feel that i'm useful ~~! haha ~~!By da way ~ when i go there de i fill da form ~~ i don't even imagine that i cannot spell out buddha that time ~~! feel shame with that ~haha ~ today i go there with my mum & dad aT 2.00 pm then wait till 4.15 pm just can finish making da stupid ic ~! haha ~ when the malay boy help my mum take pictures he asking my mum [ you really 40 years old ? really not look alike ~~ did you use anything or eat anything ?? ] haha is that funny ???that time my mum happy till just can see teeth can't see eyes already ~

27.02.08 [ what i send ] meaningful

If a girl cries in front ofyou, it means that she couldn't take itanymore...If you take her hand, she would staywith you for the rest of your life; ifyou let her go, she couldn't go backto being herself anymore...A girl won't cry easily, Except infront of the person who she love themost, she becomes weak..A girl won't cry easily, only when sheloves you the most, she put down herego.Guys, if a girl cries because of youplease hold her hands firmly, she'sthe one who would stay with you forthe rest of your life.Guys, if a girl cries because of you,please don't give her up, maybebecause of your decision, you ruin herlife.When she cry right in front of you,when she cry because of you, Look intoher eyes, Can u see n feel the pain nhurt she's feeling?Think....Which other girl have cried wif puresincerity, Infront of you, And becauseof you?*__*She cry not because she is weak, Shecry not because she wan sympathy orpity,She cry, Because crying silently is nolonger possible, the pain, hurt, nagony have become too big a burden tobe kept inside...Guys, Think about it...*im saying it..*If a girl cry her heart out to you, And all because of you, Its time to look back on wat u have done, Only you will know the answer to it.Do consider it. Cause one day....It may be too late for regrets,It may be too late to say "im sorry".To my friends...Ponder this message seriously.Do not do this to a girl,You may regret for the rest of yourlife. Maybe in your life, she's theonly one that love YOU the most.

This is what i send to him today ~
actually i feel no way to send this !
i don't hope to send this ~ but i musT do this !
becaue i wish he is happy wiht his love .. [ said out by heart ]
I really feel right with this passage damn meaningful ~~!


I LOVE HIM BUT I WISH HE WAS HAPPY FOREVER !!!